Poor old Bene has been suffering from Chicken Pox this week. I say suffering, but in fact he’s been remarkably well with it really; we thought we were going to get it a few weeks ago when my nephew was here for a day the day before he went dotty but he missed it then, […]
A good day.
It’s not often that a trip to Milton Keynes and an ill prepared exam equal a good day. Today they did. Today I met up with a friend and the woman she will marry soon to pick my best woman dress. And I fitted into dresses without whimpering and picked from two that looked lovely […]
Just a dog.
These times are more frequent lately. Flashbacks. Returning memories. A sudden glimpse of Freddie’s face in his sleeping brothers profile. A flicker of something that was gone and which is seeping back, slinking in through back doorways left unthinkingly open. I don’t try to look back. I don’t hunt for memories. I think that if […]
Garden Bunting
I had good plans for the garden last Autumn when I put together a plan for a make over competition (which I came nowhere at all in!). My Pinterest board full of pretty sensory ideas keeps staring at me and I’m just beginning to wonder if Fran and I can pull off a short and […]
The elephant in the room.
It took a very long time before I stopped seeing all the triggers the world holds as personally aimed assaults on my ability to stay standing. The radio songs, the names in books, the boy baby in blue who caught my eye and smiled at me outside of what felt normal. I grew a crust […]
Things with wheels.
The boy likes things with wheels. Car. Bike. Truck. Lorry (lor-ee). Van. Digger. Bus. He likes them a lot. He likes to acknowledge every vehicle we see and he likes us to acknowledge them back. Car journeys are fun 🙄 So as you can imagine, Truckfest from his bedroom window makes for a deliriously happy […]
Jigsaw Boy
I forget to post about Bene and how he’s growing up. He’s the centre of the universe here, doted on by all of us, never unattended, never alone or left to his own devices. He’s fitted right in like the last piece of the jigsaw. But I’ve not remembered to keep a tally of what […]
See the little angels.
I love Night Watch by Terry Pratchett. I love the story, the bittersweet twists of a man watching his own history unfold all over again. I love the world wearied character Sam Vimes has become. I love his rough morality, his honest, gritty, reluctant love for family and honour and his street ethics. I love […]
Those days.
I’ve back dated this because it feels wrong to have it not on the ‘day’ that Freddie died, but it has taken me a week to write it. Truth is, I’ve not wanted to write it and because I didn’t want to write it, I haven’t written anything. It’s been a silent April. The words […]
This one is for friendship #daffodilboy
A few weeks ago I asked friends to join in with me as I crafted myself to distraction in the run up to Freddie’s ‘should be’ 4th birthday and join me. For those who did, I am truly grateful. And for those who sent photos of daffodils on the 2nd and thought of us and […]
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