We are having a lovely few days. Comparing this year to last year is something I am trying hard not to do, because it seems unkind or disrespectful to be happy this year. But we are. Now is not the time to dwell or try to make sense of how unreal the last two years […]
It was, you may say, satisfactory.
We took our grief to Audley End, a place I carried Freddie secretly one hot late summer day 2 1/2 years ago. Walked the same grass, trod the same paths. We are not the same 6 as then. We are not even 6. We are a family who count ourselves in measured phrases and appropriate […]
Home
We are home. Carrying Benedict out of the hospital was up there with the two most emotional walks of my life, quite literally walking in the opposite direction down a corridor to my only ever walk with Freddie. With my back to the door of that room. Going home. I don’t think either of us […]
Meeting the family
We are loving getting to know this little boy. 6th time in and our eyes are opened all over again to what a miracle it is to see a baby breathe and be whole and live. I don’t think the full reality has sunk in yet for me, but it is beginning to. I’m just […]
Christmas
It hasn’t been quite the run up to Christmas that I planned; work, school, the pantomime, camp and pregnancy have combined to mean no time, lots of stress and very little blogging of Christmas crafty stuff, never mind doing it. We have done some things together but I lost my Christmas joy somewhere along the […]
Conversation Ed
Last week Fran handed in a science leaflet she had to write looking at health issues and ways of avoiding them or managing them. One element was smoking; I smiled when I saw what she’d written, which included lots about how the government couldn’t ban it because it would become an illegal trade in tobacco […]
"Look Mummy, look mummy… mummy… mummy…"
If you’ve been at home with children on a completely full time basis for as long as I have (13 years and rising), then you’ve probably developed a number of coping mechanisms by now. One of mine is tuna, mayo and sweetcorn pasta. Lunch, very quickly, with all the most important food groups in it, […]
Practically helpless.
When I built my very first website, it was for an OU course I was doing that devoted an entire 30 points to learning how to search for things on the net, use basic html, find out how email and connected computers came to be (very interesting) and not write something biased and subjective. I […]
Camping it up.
I could start this post by saying we are confirmed campers. When I think about it though, I haven’t actually had a proper tent holiday since before I was pregnant with Freddie. I can’t even pinpoint it now. Maybe the Summer before but I think not, so probably even the summer before that. If it […]
It's not much but it's home.
One of the things I had intended to do this year was make our home more… well… homely. When we first moved here we were all of a dither with big stuff that had been going on. The move was a rush job anyway, one that certainly took the then 18 month old Josie by […]
