I spent the weekend away in Liverpool with most of my girls which, given where we live, meant a fair bit of time on trains. I didn’t crochet as much as I intended and it was a very busy weekend but I have made progress. It needs to be finished by Wednesday night though, […]
The heads of the daffodils in the garden are already turning yellow; they’ll bloom in a matter of weeks, they’ll be over before March has ended. Daffodils are Freddie’s flower. I don’t want to do April without daffodils. Seeing them nodding and bobbing on the 2nd April is one of the things that keeps me […]
Yesterday, a year ago, I was watching and photographing Freddie. I had no idea it was his last day alive. Today, a year ago, I had just watched him die. Now, it is more than a year since I was pregnant or had a baby to care for and love. Tomorrow, I need to get […]
A Million Feelings, a photo by Merrily Me on Flickr.
These days, when I look in my girls eyes, I can see many things. I can see that they’ve been sad, terribly, terribly sad and that it will be with them forever. But I also see girls who know how to be happy; every day I see them take a deep breath, shake themselves and […]
After a grumpy day yesterday (I think top of the list of ‘how to help your friend if she loses a child’ should be ‘if she says the day is starting happy, she’ll crash within an hour and needs hourly moral boosts and love all day’) I wanted to do better today. The sun was […]