According to the widget on my phone, I have 35 days to go; I don’t because I know this baby will be arriving before its due date but even so I can’t help feeling that 35 days sounds simultaneously an eternity and an instant. In fact I have roughly the time between now and Xmas […]
Circles
The hospital I would prefer to give birth in (actually the only one I’m prepared to give birth in) is about to be taken over by a company called Circle; in fact, it will be taken over in the same month (quite possibly the same day) that Marmite is due to be born). This is […]
Things that don't make sense
How can it be that a birth that left me in this kind of a mess resulted in a healthy child and a birth as simple, easy and beautiful as Freddie’s resulted in a child who died but who left me with no lasting rage, anger or mental damage. How am I supposed to make […]
Sometimes the roots are too big.
Glancing through that Birth Trauma site last night was a bit of a revelation. After Fran, i knew i was in a bad way, but i had very little access to information and very unsupportive health professionals. I knew i was in trouble but i didn’t know where to start. By this stage, i had […]
