This Summer the girls and I dabbled with gardening again. We’d planned to anyway, I had thought it would be a good way to get us all outside in a season I expected to spend with a smallish baby and probably a lack of inclination for going very far away. The way our house is […]
On being six and grief struck
I want to talk about Josie. I want to write so much about her but the things that I have to say make me want to weep and stick in my throat and tie my fingers. She’s six now. Last week, on Bonfire Night, we had presents and a party with a couple of local […]
Trying to finish off last weeks list.
I’m not going to make it entirely, as Fran has promised a guest blog for part of it, but she’s hugely caught up in both her NaNo and now some terribly complicated spreadsheet she is designing (for a 12 year old anyway) so that might take a while. It’s too long ago to blog Halloween […]
Telepathy & Pixies
Dear Freddie, Seven months. More than half a year. Most of the time I was pregnant with you. Seven long and lonely months learning to live with the feeling of you not in my arms. I’ve spent so much of this month thinking of the link you and I shared and of all the times […]
The Day of the Dead
It seems amazing, incredible, prophetic and deeply ironic that last year, on this date, I added my little egg in a basket to my blog header and announced my pregnancy. It was just Halloween then, though I was reading some books that were showing me a way of thinking of this time of year as […]
Wishing for nothing
A few days I caught myself imagining being given £1million a month for life. I realised, with horror really, that it couldn’t make me happier than I am. This is not a bad thing, because aside from tragedy, I think I actually am happy. Roughly £2K a month might take the pressure off financially, but […]
Largely wordless
In common with many of those in my dead baby mama community, a community I value but so wish I were not part of, I find myself largely wordless this month. I wonder if October just does that; the cold, the sense of death, the bleakness. Any hope of life being sustained, of a miracle […]
Oh, I hate that.
I’m not going to link, because it will just provoke something that I don’t want it to – and anyway, I agree with the sentiment of the original poster, just not really with what read as a slightly unforgiving commenter afterwards. Yet again, I’ve ended up really hurt and cross because of the “you need […]
Continuing on a theme…
We’ve possibly been having a mini-half term here – we’ll probably have one next week too, so perhaps we’re a private school 😉 Yesterday we had S and P here for the day; all the kids did some stuff round the table in the morning, some mathletics and mine did music and they played for […]
I just wanna be okay, be okay…
Actually, I hate that advert. Too many pregnant women and daddy’s nestling their babies. But I like the song. Yesterday there was a loud knock at the door, I answered and it was the lady collecting electoral roll data. Naturally this year i really haven’t got round to filling that out. (This is blatant hiding […]
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