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The Daffodil Boy.

February 18, 2014 by

The heads of the daffodils in the garden are already turning yellow; they’ll bloom in a matter of weeks, they’ll be over before March has ended. Daffodils are Freddie’s flower. I don’t want to do April without daffodils. Seeing them nodding and bobbing on the 2nd April is one of the things that keeps me […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief Tagged With: baby freddie, daffodil crafts., daffodils, freddie, grief, remembering

Mostly… nice.

December 31, 2013 by

I’ve craved a year that could be called ‘mostly nice’ for the last few years. It’s been a while. Mostly painful, mostly dreadful, mostly despairing, mostly frightening, mostly stressful – those are the ways to describe the years from about 2006 onwards. From torrid times at home, to stressfully trying to maintain a business and […]

Filed Under: Being a Parent, Family Life, Freddie, Thinking Tagged With: 2013, end of year blog, new years eve blog, round up

Felted Stars and Thoughts on Christmas.

December 9, 2013 by

I didn’t get much time crafting last week, aside from the crochet squares I was working hard at finishing. I’m down to the last 25 or so and then the blanket just needs putting together. But in one quiet moment, I did make these, 1 for my little momentary nod towards Freddie, 2 to send […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief Tagged With: christmas and child loss

Got ya.

November 28, 2013 by

This will be our fourth Christmas without him. I’m quite practiced at this now. I’ve learned what to do and what not to do. I know I’ll cry when I see 5 stocking put out, but not as hard as I cried at 4 and when it felt like there was no hope of there […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief, Thinking Tagged With: #glowinthewoods, change, grief, life after loss

The Angry.

November 17, 2013 by

Wednesday was a really tough day. Every so often, a grief day emerges, out of nowhere except a combination of events and hormones and co-incidences and moments of unexpected thoughtlessness. And Wednesday started, as it so often does, with a dream. I never dream about Freddie; I have barely dreamed of him at all; I […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief, Uncategorized Tagged With: baby loss, cowardice, freddie, grief, loss, memorial

For You.

October 15, 2013 by

You are missing – and so a part of me is always missing too. You are gone – and so a part of me has gone forever with you. You were here – a part of you is with me in all my days and all the dark of night. I saw you with my […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief

The Silent Salute #WaveOfLight

October 15, 2013 by

There are days when I ache to speak of Freddie with my voice, not my fingers. Days when I wish for someone to sit with me and hold me while I sift his hospital notes and my hastily copied social media comments for the snippets of his life which have fled my memory. There are […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief Tagged With: #waveoflight, baby loss, freddie, infant loss, international infant loss awareness day, neonatal death, unexplained infant death

We don't talk about the SCBU days.

September 23, 2013 by

I’m writing today at Glow in the Woods about the reality of parenting after losing a child who lived his whole life in the care of the medical people we trust with our lives and who couldn’t save him. I don’t write much about the SCBU days. It’s still too painful to think about, let […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief, Thinking, Writing Tagged With: #glowinthewoods, babyloss, freddie, grief, scbu

This bit of me.

September 3, 2013 by

I think I once knew these as ‘Preacher in the Pulpit’, a long time ago, when people told me the names of flowers. I think, confused, I mixed up pulpit with spit and believed they grew from the untouchable, improbable, highly suspicious cuckoo spit that foamed and flawed the weeds of our walks. Spit. Pulpit. […]

Filed Under: Freddie Tagged With: anger, grief, infant loss, loss, revisiting grief

Monkey Do

July 19, 2013 by

He was playing on the floor at work this week, engrossed in two plastic cars off the stock shelves and a box of shredded paper. Perfect play fodder for a little boy. Cars and mess. We were both smiling at him and watching him play. Distracted, he looked up and reached for a different toy. […]

Filed Under: Freddie, Grief Tagged With: #glowinthewoods, after loss, freddie, grief, infant loss, irony, loss, siblings, signs

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