I went for a scan last week, followed by a consultant appointment, where I did at least manage to explain myself a bit better and got patted 😉 Marmite was looking fine on the scan too, a healthy 3lbs something and well behaved. He was proudly showing off his willy (it was actually the first […]
29 Weeks Pregnant
It’s been a really hard couple of weeks. We’re fine; we’re all fine, me, Marmite, Max and the girls etc etc but none the less, we’ve been through the mill and back over the last week or so. It’s been horrible. It’s inevitable, I suppose; the girls are busy, work and therefore Max are busy. […]
Hello baby
Trying not to think too hard about the fact that stress can harm an unborn child. Its been a stressful few days. Somehow I’m booked on a section list. That wasn’t quite what I meant to happen and now that I am, I am deeply sure that is not how I want this baby to […]
27 Weeks Pregnant
Time is marching on. Mostly, I’m still relaxed, though the worries about birthing this person are getting on top of me at times. Mostly Marmite moves enough to keep me sane. It’s a new experience though, this need to feel a movement any time I wake in the night and before I get up in […]
Circles
The hospital I would prefer to give birth in (actually the only one I’m prepared to give birth in) is about to be taken over by a company called Circle; in fact, it will be taken over in the same month (quite possibly the same day) that Marmite is due to be born). This is […]
25 Weeks Pregnant
*warning – baby photo at the bottom* One of the biggest changes in this pregnancy from really any other, is the difference in all the relationships surrounding it inside this house. When I was pregnant with Freddie it felt very much that the girls were aware, in a different way to they ever were when […]
The Tommy's Five Point Pregnancy Campaign Round Up.
A while ago I did a blog post about the Tommy’s Campaign promoting Healthy Pregnancy. I’ve been woefully slow getting to my round up and handing out of prizes. I’m sorry about that. I’ve been needing a little more head space and a little more down time – and I made a decision to try […]
23 Weeks Pregnant.
Marmite is looking like making it to a major milestone, that of ‘viability’. It’s odd to be thinking like that. I never gave 24 weeks any thought with the girls and then with Freddie all I could think about was that if we got to 24 weeks and he died, at least he’d be a […]
This is the thing.
This is the thing about pregnancy after losing a baby. Some moments it’s fine. Other millennia it’s just a bit tricky. Rainbow babies, just like other babies, don’t do constant reassuring cartwheels, beating morse code of “I am alive, I will live, I will cry and breathe and open my eyes for you.” I just […]
20 Weeks Pregnant
Closer to 21 weeks now in fact. I’m counting down in a reasonably big way. When I was pregnant with Freddie, it seemed terribly important to enjoy every last minute because I was sure he would be the last. Even with all this misgivings I had, I enjoyed it. This time it is harder to […]
