Short, sweet and late but here is a work in progress of the wreath I’m making for Freddie’s birthday this year.
I feel I should be more invested in this; it’s Freddie fifth ‘should be birthday’ this week and I’m simultaneously overwhelmed with grief that is stifling me and overwhelmed by other things that are stopping me from concentrating on it.
Five years is huge. Five years is moved on and dealing with it. Five years was a place I never imagined surviving till.
This wreath is muted, smaller, quieter and has pink in it, something I couldn’t have done a year ago or two years ago.
It’s more Spring and less Freddie. It’s more project and less grief.
But it is the only gift I can give him. It’s the only thing I can do to stop his birthday passing without a mention or a murmur.
This isn’t the post I meant to write.
There are daffodils from a recent Simply Crochet pattern (simple to do and follow but take a long time each!) in Rowan Handknit Renew as is the wreath cover done in the (apparently impossible to keep straight at the edges) UK Treble stitches that makes a piece of fabric quite quickly.
The forgetmenots need a paler blue but that little pattern is one I came up with on my own and rather like. My plan is to have a branch of cherry blossom and some star magnolia like Freddie’s tree flowers.
I’ve made a widget of the Crochet Garden Pinterest board I have which has some ideas for cherry blossom and so on on it. I’ve ended up creating my own cherry blossom pattern too though, which I’ll put on the bit reveal post. (Sometime!)