Yesterday, a year ago, I was watching and photographing Freddie. I had no idea it was his last day alive.
Today, a year ago, I had just watched him die.
Now, it is more than a year since I was pregnant or had a baby to care for and love.
Tomorrow, I need to get used to seeing the view for what it is – and being grateful for what I have.
I will learn to do that. Tomorrow.
My heart goes out to you, I often read your blog. The heartbreak of losing your child is one nobody understands unless they too have lost their beloved child. Thoughts & prayers to you my lovely.xx
Thank you for thinking of us and understanding.
you have endured some of the most awful tomorrows that a person can bear – and I pray with all my heart that your future tomorrows are filled with hope and joy x
I’m not holding my breath. This morning was also test day – and it didn’t have any nice surprises 🙁
Sending you much love as you navigate these days, missing and remembering your Freddie.
xo
Thank you for all your supportive comments Sally. xxx
Remembering Freddie with you.
Thank you 🙂 I love that people say his name and remember him.
You have been in my thoughts since I woke this morning. Freddie’s candle has been lit every evening since his birthday, and I’ll light it again tonight. So much love to you and yours. x
Oh thank you Jeanette. It means such a lot. And apologies for inadvertently correcting a typo in your comment; I was on autopilot and did it without thinking. Not a bad thing exactly, but felt a little rude!
Thank you so much for your lovely comment on my gallery last week. I was facing mother’s day without mum and you explained what you had to face this week too, I really felt for you. This is a beautiful post, it’s not easy to be positive or give the reader something positive at a time like this. Wishing you strength for all of your tomorrows.
Thank you so much for stopping by 🙂
Sending you love & hugs Merry. xxx
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My heart goes out to you and your family. Wishing you strength for tomorrow.
xxx Thank you 🙂
Thinking of you today, Merry. x
And I of you Allie. Many hugs.
Oh my. I wish you and your family strength for tomorrow and for the future.
We do seem to have that, which is a blessed relief. And took some work, fortunately work we put in before Freddie was born.
Thinking of you all xxx
Aah, thanks for all your support Anne-Marie.
Love and hugs to you all xxx
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I have not lived this pain but wanted to wish you well in making sense of it all. Such a honest post and thanks for sharing the photograph of Freddie with us.
Thank you for your good wishes and for stopping by.
Been thinking of you all today and remembering. We’ll be lighting a candle tonight. Much love to you all from both of us xx
Thanks hun. Need to speak to you; will phone soon.
ahhh, I have tears in my eyes and goose bumps after reading this. My heart goes out to you x
Thank you so much for reading and taking the time to comment. Loved yours too.
Bless you all, Merry. We will be lighting a candle for Freddie this evening x
Thank you, that really means a lot.
Have been thinking of you a lot today.
Here’s to tomorrow, and all that came before it x
That seems a very perfect salute. Thank you Josie 🙂
I send you my best wishes for a peaceful day tomorrow remembering your beloved son, Freddie. I’ll think of you all tomorrow mornin when I open the curtains and see the daffodils outside. C x
So beautifully and simply written. I will be thinking of you all. x
Thank you 🙂
Simply beautiful and powerful words and photographs. I hope your tomorrows are filled with happiness and laughter xx
Thank you xxx
Oh no, this is the first time that I’ve come across your blog and I am so sorry for your loss. That must be so meaningless, but I have no other way of saying it. I can read how desperately sad you are in your post, my heart breaks for you.
I always appreciate people saying it. It is never meaningless. It means a lot to me that people know about him. In 30 years, he’ll be forgotten by all but us. It is good to think of people knowing him for a while
I have been thinking of you and Freddie all day. Such a beautiful photo of your lovely boy. Sending love xx
I wish I had taken more. It feels insane now that i didn’t think to do more of them.
I think the back view is powerfully symbolic of moving on. I’d be interested to know how you think this compares with mine: http://fireflyphil.posterous.com
It was a lovely photo. I was so glad to catch it.
I am thinking of you and Freddie Merry.. do only what you can mamma… it is an ever winding road we travel.
His photo is just so beautiful.. makes my heart ache….
Isn’t it just. Thinking of you and Cullen, Leslie.
The picture of your view makes my heart ache, the gap between your beautiful girls and Max should have a small boy in it. I’m so very sorry for your loss Merry. Much love to you all x
I know. It is very hard not to see that picture with Max and Fran turned towards each other, their hands holding up a new toddler.
Oh Merry, he is such a beautiful baby. Remembering him right along with you. xx
Thank you Jenn. Your support means such a lot.
Such a powerful post. Hugs to you xxx
Thank you. It felt very ‘right’ that The Gallery provided the opportunity on that day.
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Beautiful photograph of Freddie
He was just so very gorgeous. We did love him.