At 7pm people around the world will light candles to remember babies lost in all circumstances, at any age, during pregnancy, birth or after.
Jess has read a list of baby names aloud at AfterIris. I’m incredibly grateful for the special effort she made for Freddie when he was accidentally left out of the reading. It meant the world to me.
Since losing Freddie, I have met so many baby lost mothers online. I am afraid of hurting anyone by omitting one by accident so I have chosen not to list them. But to everyone who reads here or who I read – I think of you and your babies too.
Today I also I remember babies with names, with numbers, I remember babies whose names I know can be said out loud and I write initials for places where I would not presume to use more in public because I have not seen them written in full on the internet. Babies who have been part of the lives of women and families I know in real life. Far more babies than is reasonable in one small circle.
I remember Freddie.
I remember a twin and more blue lines than I can believe I have seen.
I remember Evie Rose.
I remember Benjamin.
I remember Joel.
I remember B and E.
I remember Toby and Estella.
I remember Sophia and Thomas.
I remember Matthew.
I remember Lily.
I remember the lost potential children of friends & family who I love.
I remember Florence Violet and Emma Faith, daughters of mothers I knew before these losses.
I remember Minnie.
I remember Thomas.
I remember Jack.
Would that it were possible to call a halt on all this loss.
*If I have forgotten (dear gods, I hope not), or a name needs to be removed, replaced or altered, please say.