I’m finding this “working mum” thing a bit of a mixed blessing. I do like having the unit and i certainly love having it all out of my house, i do like having separate time for work and home and i can safely say that it works better for all of us. I do like having me time and a little domain of my own and i think the kids appreciate the delineation of our lives. And it goes without saying that i like the fact that our lives are more flexible, i can take a day off for a birthday and they all see more of Max, even if i probably don’t.
I have to say though i am having some difficulty adapting to having a “working life” and perhaps being, for the first time, a a person who really is “my own boss”. Working in a business environment for the first time in a very long time, i am beginning to see how hard i find it to focus. All sorts of things bother me and stop me concentrating on one thing but most of all i think i get there and it takes me a while for my mind to get into “work gear” and start formulating a plan for the day; i seem fritter away time on small things and not see a bigger picture. I’m struggling to be my own boss, especially now i have time to be it! I think i was better at shoe-horning it all into tiny spaces of time.
Part of it is that it is actually time off, i get to relax slightly and stop being Mummy. I’ve forgotten how to be a working person, how to have a plan for the day and a structure. If anyone has any ideas on how to make this work better, how to get into a more professional frame of mind, i’d be grateful for it.