Dear Freddie, 3 months ago today, also on a Friday, that laughably named ‘Good Friday’ you were born. You should be 3 months old. I think, now, that I never expected you. I was expecting, but I never believed you would come. And you never did. I’m never going to wonder whether to send you […]
In the hands of a bitter, bitter moon.
Dear Freddie, You should be 2 months old today. I can’t remember what a 2 month old is like – i was very much looking forward to reminding myself with you, finding out all over again about having a baby in the house. In a perfect world, the one i have to remind myself we […]
Friends and Family
I’m struggling to remember the days properly. I seem to be regaining use of my faculties rather slowly, if i’m honest. When we came home from the hospital, i had literally lost the ability to control my body temperature, through shock or tiredness or 11 days in SCBU and shivered all night unless i was […]
Freddie's Day
Today was Freddie’s funeral, the first part of it anyway, as we plan a memorial with friends and family later. We didn’t feel this part would be helpful for the girls to attend and felt if we were caring for them, it wouldn’t be helpful for us either so decided to have a private service. […]
