The below are my updates to friends through Freddie’s life, mostly just for my records really as it is all a blur and i need to get some memories back. Ill tidy it up at some point. Feel free to ignore. I’m not actually sure all the dates are right from the early part as […]
The End of April
This is something new: I don’t want April to end. For the first time in such a long, long time, April has something in it that i cannot bear to let go. April 2010. The month our son Freddie was born and lived and died. A son. A boy. A brother. I don’t have a […]
Other Stuff
Maddy playing rugby in an end of season tournament with lots of other local clubs. (Some serious dad involvement in the shouting from the sidelines!) Playing on bikes the day after Max and i came home from the hospital. Swan Pond – Maddy’s Hama Bead swan pond model from the night before Freddie was born. […]
Balancing it up.
Life goes on. Seems to be the only thing i can think of to say about it really. And it really does go on; other lives, other events and you quickly realise that you and yours are just a tiny part of a much bigger picture. Even in hospital with Freddie we watched a Brian […]
Freddie's Day
Today was Freddie’s funeral, the first part of it anyway, as we plan a memorial with friends and family later. We didn’t feel this part would be helpful for the girls to attend and felt if we were caring for them, it wouldn’t be helpful for us either so decided to have a private service. […]
A Life More Ordinary
We’re bumbling along. I think one of the most shocking things about all this suddenly being ‘a family with a dead child’ stuff is that an awful lot of life is going on just as normal. Partly i suppose that is because we are trying to make it so and partly perhaps because Freddie wasn’t […]
23 April 2010
Life is not a Rehearsal. Well. I don’t know. I’m beginning to think it possibly is. But not so much for the next life, perhaps more for whatever is coming along next in this one. I was definitely a child who ‘over-felt’ things; i have a clear memory of weeping disconsolately, aged 7, on the […]
Freddie's April.
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Alongside and Beyond
When i went into labour, the girls spent the day with Auntie Sue. As it goes, it was actually a fairly hilarious morning really, i so wish it had ended in a way that made the fun of it seem appropriate. Perhaps that will come. They spent the weekend being cared for by my parents […]
Stop all the Clocks
Just a short note to let you know that Freddie died peacefully in our arms, in the gentlest, kindest way possible, this morning. I think he had done all he came to do, including opening his eyes and making noises for a while before suddenly becoming a far more poorly baby. I am as sure […]
