I had a lot of vague but relatively grand plans for Freddie’s 10th birthday. Somewhere in my head I decided, years ago now, that this would be the point where I would have reached a serene understanding and acceptance of my little baby boy dying without ever leaving a hospital. I thought this would be […]
The End.
I’ve said it all before. I’ve tried to find the urge to blog again too, in various times and in various ways. But honestly? I don’t believe in it any more. I don’t feel safe doing it. The idea of writing something controversial and the meanness of what some people will do with that horrifies […]
“The last thing I want to do is document it all.”
I said this last week (to Who’s the Mummy, as it happens), to explain why I never blog any more. And, to be fair (to coin an overused phrase favourite of of of my teens, the run up to Xmas felt fairly miserable, for not even the right reason of our shops being nice and […]
Big Changes.
I’ve thought of myself as a home educator for years, even recently when the kids were in and out of school, though “home educator at heart” is, probably quite rightly, sniffed at by pure home educators. But it was how I felt, my life has been kid centric, both family and educational provision, for 18 […]
A Toy or Two to Tempt me to Blog.
I have been gone so long from this blog, even though I promised faithfully to get back to writing. A while ago I wrote something to explain what had happened to make me so very absent; even though my chemically enhanced brainbox makes all that feel very distant now, time has marched on so fast […]
11 days.
It passes in a flash these days, those 11 days between a birthday trip out and these minutes, when I was holding him in my arms and watching him drift away forever. 11 nights of candles, 11 days of quietly mulling over what was happening each day and where we were in that beautiful, hellish […]
Not 6.
It really gets me every year that these were my last few happy minutes, minutes where really I’d never had anything to be utterly crushed by, ever again. It doesn’t really work like that of course. There are plenty of happy moments, not least because I learned to be grateful for Freddie in so many […]
Buying for Dad: Perfect presents for all ages
Dads can be hard to buy for and their tastes can vary greatly depending on their age, which is why this great gift guide has been put together for you to take your pick of the best pressie ideas for Dads of all ages – whether it’s Father’s Day or his birthday. The gadget loving […]
Memories of Paris from my teens – and my teen.
On Monday, Expedia invited me to write about Paris and my memories of visiting there when I was younger. I wrote the post and had it ready to post on Tuesday morning. I’ve held it back until this morning and mulled all week about my feelings regarding travel, anxiety and living life without fear. The […]
A mother’s day.
I watched Mother’s Day drift past yesterday with a sort of wry amusement; 17 years on from my first, I’ve long got over the fact that if you build it up as a day where you expect a combination of the most thoughtless elements of the house (children) combined with the least slushy and demonstrative […]
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