There is no doubt that we six are on the mend. There is no doubt that Ben is healing our hearts at a speed and pace that nothing else could have other than a time machine and a better outcome for Freddie. Looking at them all baby worshiping yesterday, I said that I felt like I had done something in having him which was a good thing. And Fran said simply “yes, he’s made us all happy again.”
You can’t argue with that. It’s amazing what changes a baby makes in a house. It’s amazing how engrossing it is, how much they all love just looking at him and interacting with him already, even when it is just glimpses of eyes and little hand squeezes. They are amazing big sisters to Ben. They deserved so much better than having to live without one brother but, being the optimistic souls they are, they know how to be grateful for and welcoming to the one they have.
It Ben and Max who are healing my heart the most though. I’m almost knocked to my knees every time I see them together and if anything… anything… separates them ever, I think I will wrench the universe from its moorings to get revenge for it. We have done enough. I will not tolerate any more sad in this house.
I will not.
Woody and Ernest have such a strong bond, partly due to our feeding issues, and Woody having to take a much more active role than he’d neded to with the others. (It’s not easy pumping every two hours and also feeding a newborn, and extra pair of hands is a necessity)
I love that Ernest adores Woody, and I love that my older children adore Ernest. It does ease the pain in so many ways.
Those photos are divine. I am glad there is less sad in the house…..and am sure Freddie is looking down on you all.
When I see the 2nd photo of Ben’s head of baby hair is drives me insane how ridiculously cute he is. You seem to be coping with it all admirably.
I am so happy for you. I feel your joy radiating from every blog post and picture you share. I too had no idea the joy and transformation a baby would bring to our house. The laughter that echoes off these walls … I had no idea it was missing or how much we needed it back. Ben is adorable, I want to snuggle him, kiss those sweet cheeks, thank him for being.
Ah, that picture with the hands – just beautiful! x
Stunning words and stunning photographs to go with them Merry. I’m so pleased you’re all enjoying the new addition to your family. x