Fran starts school next week. Although the reality of how much I will miss her is sinking firmly in, I’m still feeling very positive about it. It seems she is too, though she isn’t saying much. If asked, she says she is looking forward to stretching herself to a new challenge, which I like and certainly beats “finally I get to have some friends and be taught properly” which i think is what people imagine she feels.
Last week we went and met people and talked over various things. I have to say I like the atmosphere and the ethos. How flexible we manage to make it I don’t know; I have asked for some ability to educate off site at time if we are doing good trips etc. I got the impression they were amenable potentially to some of that, but we’ll see. She does CATs on Wednesday to help stream her and we should have her time table by the end of the week ready for next Monday. She’s chosen the options she wants, which we’ve encouraged her to play to her strength in really; quantity matters less to me that quality and life. GCSEs feel far from the be all and end all. We’ll do history at home quite probably, as they can’t fit her into that.
After that we uniform shopped and again I felt very cheered up. The lady was lovely, in fact everyone was extremely welcoming and positive and the kids who came into the shop while we were there seemed nice enough. It was the first time I had been there while kids were too; given it was over lunch/tutor time, I was staggered by how calm and organised it all was! Uniform was eye-watering but she looks lovely in it, even if she has been put into the luminous orange house!
I have to admit, that despite being sad that we are at the end of an era with Fran, I am pleased and excited for her. She’s ready. She is REALLY ready. She’s worked so hard this last week or so, sharpening up her brain with verbal/non-verbal reasoning to get ready to do her best at the CATs. She’s swallowing the reality of the things that will change in a very grown up manner. If I’m sad that she won’t be home educated any more, I’m mostly sad because I know that it is the right decision at this moment. I know carrying on being home educated through belief it is best wouldn’t actually fit her needs best right now. We could have done the GCSE thing from home but I think she is ready for so much more than just getting down to harder work and exams and I really think this will give it to her.