Today was Freddie’s funeral, the first part of it anyway, as we plan a memorial with friends and family later. We didn’t feel this part would be helpful for the girls to attend and felt if we were caring for them, it wouldn’t be helpful for us either so decided to have a private service. […]
Archives for 2010
A Life More Ordinary
We’re bumbling along. I think one of the most shocking things about all this suddenly being ‘a family with a dead child’ stuff is that an awful lot of life is going on just as normal. Partly i suppose that is because we are trying to make it so and partly perhaps because Freddie wasn’t […]
23 April 2010
Life is not a Rehearsal. Well. I don’t know. I’m beginning to think it possibly is. But not so much for the next life, perhaps more for whatever is coming along next in this one. I was definitely a child who ‘over-felt’ things; i have a clear memory of weeping disconsolately, aged 7, on the […]
Freddie's April.
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Alongside and Beyond
When i went into labour, the girls spent the day with Auntie Sue. As it goes, it was actually a fairly hilarious morning really, i so wish it had ended in a way that made the fun of it seem appropriate. Perhaps that will come. They spent the weekend being cared for by my parents […]
Stop all the Clocks
Just a short note to let you know that Freddie died peacefully in our arms, in the gentlest, kindest way possible, this morning. I think he had done all he came to do, including opening his eyes and making noises for a while before suddenly becoming a far more poorly baby. I am as sure […]
Update on Freddie
Sorry not to have done it sooner. We’ve had a rollercoaster week; i stayed in hospital for most of it until that was really no longer good for me, while Max has dotted between me and Freddie, the girls, the business and general life. My mum, dad, sister and Max’s aunt have been caring for […]
Baby Freddie
A short note to let you know that baby boy arrived on Friday following a beautiful pool and couch birth. Unfortunately he didn’t breathe at birth and has not yet woken up and is in SCBU though the reasons for this unexpected start are not clear. Certainly the birth was smooth and the only flicker […]
No joke.
Phew. Not going to be having an April Fool baby anyway, even if it did give a good impression of planning it yesterday. Now just have to navigate avoiding a few un-favourite days in April 🙄 Didn’t actually expect to get a March baby, but now vaguely wondering how late it will be exactly. Have […]
Reasons to be Cheerful
We had a lovely quiet weekend alone, while my parents and sister and co had a much noisier weekend entertaining my children, who returned utterly exhausted yesterday evening. Having some time just the two of us was really wonderful; there is so little time in a busy and full household to just be together as […]
