Actually, i’m only really having a very slight humphf, which has been brought on by this evening’s trip to the doctors. Took Fran (itchy skin, mild eczema… joy) and achy ear plus Amelie too, who needed a once over, plus the nut thing. Worst thing about having 4 children is that they have to complain long and loud to get to the doctors – and on this occasion i waited till i had a job lot.
Fran hasn’t been able to hear in one ear and complained it was ringing a bit (not entirely the contradiction it sounds!) so i wanted to get her checked out and referred to ENT again if required. Turned out she just had an ear infection though – gawd knows how long she’s been moaning and just getting Sudafed and Calpol 🙁 *packs bag and hops aboard the guilt trip train*
Amelie was a longer story and i’m feeling slightly floored that instead of patting my knee, telling me not to over-react and sending us on our way, he immediately issued an Epipen and pointed out that it could come to nothing worse or become an allergy that is triggered by even remote contact, quite quickly. To be honest, i’ve been in denial for a week about it and i really wasn’t expecting the full blown ‘allergy’ roll out that we got 😥
*rewind ‘guilt for things that happened to my babies while in utero’ tape, press play and set to continuous loop* I just knew i was going to regret craving peanuts while pregnant with her one day 😥
I’m struggling, just at this moment, to work out how we impress upon her that this is potentially more serious than the milk one and that we can’t take any risks – nor can i quite believe that both the doctor and the pharmacist pointed out quite clearly that she couldn’t leave home without the Epipen and that the allergy was potentially a killer and the pen a livesaver 😥 I mean, i know that, but it’s a bit shocking to have it said to you, iykwim?
We’ve packed a little rucksack with antihistamine, pen, creams and inhalers and we’re all going to work at remembering it wherever we go, plus i’ve got to drill Max into understanding that in this situation it is gonig to be safer to over-react and give it, than under-react and leave it too late. Obviously i’ve got some reading to do so i know where i am with it. Let’s hope it never gets any worse 😥 maybe it was a one off – i think i was expecting to be told that though, it was just a shock when i wasn’t.
Otherwise, it was a good day; packed a load of parcels very early while the girls did guitar, reading, EC etc etc and then read them a story from SOTW. Though quite how you can go from Muhammed to Sinbad in the space of one chapter, i really don’t know. 🙄 Luckily we’ve got plenty of depth planned for Islam over the next few weeks. I’m going to hop over some chapters though and carry on so we do the crusades and so on rather than following the book and moving to China next – more relevant to our style to stick with a topic i think.
Finished up the day at Activity World for a good thrash out; Josie was particularly happy there today and i got an entire project planned out in note form while i was there, which was great. Must get back to going weekly so i get that time.
We’ve had a stew by Fran for tea, and now i’m going to work for a bit, mull over a few things and try to put my thoughts straight about an very unexpected – and rather shocking – meeting i had yesterday with someone from my past. I hadn’t ever expected to see her again and our lives have gone in desperately different directions over the last 8 years. I really handled the meeting badly, i just didn’t know what to say or how to act and i feel dreadfully bad about it, partly for her, partly for me but mostly for her daughter who i adore and who must have been hurt and disillusioned by how thrown i was. I need to work out if it is something i need to apologise for, or if perhaps it wasn’t as bad as i thought.
Gosh – life is never simple is it?