Today, following a 2lb loss this week, i am 1 stone lighter than i was on Christmas Eve. This is a huge achievement for me because it means that i have now maintained a weight for several weeks that i haven’t been since before i had Amelie. I was really slim (for me! lol!) when i got pregnant with her and i let it slide terribly during that pregnancy. I only have to get down another 3lbs and i’ll be back in the 12-stone-somethings and that might still seem a lot for most people, but for me it will be the most massive psychological barrier, especially as it will be at just the start of a summer of walking and enjoying salady teas. I always eat better when it is warm and light and i’m enjoying camping and stuff.
Perhaps even more importantly for me, given i care most about my long term health more than how i look, my BMI today is 32.well… point something 🙂 But that is a heck of a lot better than 35. I may still be in the obese category (although i think that is mildly unfair!) but i’m not as unhealthy as i was. And my backache is gone, my knees are feeling happier and when i look in the mirror i see the glimmer of the face i enjoy grinning with. To have reached that point in just 11 weeks of effort feels really great, to know that by the end of a nice long summer i should be in the 11-stone-somethings is motivation all on its own.
I am SO proud of myself. On friday Fran looked at me and said “that t-shirt is shaggy on you now!” and someone at group told me i was “disappearing!” Amelie has stopped asking me if i was fat when i was a little girl, Maddy said my tummy isn’t so big. Everyone is noticing and Max (who is a mere shadow of his former self at almost 2 stone less!) is just being so encouraging and supportive. Knowing that 8 years of having 4 children and breastfeeding is over but that actually the damage today is only 4lbs more than the day i got pregnant with Fran feels like a reasonable achievement. I’ve never been skinny, i never will be but i’ve been slimmer than this after i had Maddy and i know i can be again.
Roll on the 12-stone-somethings. Roll on the summer. Roll on buying size 14’s. The size 16s that i squeezed into the day after the Toy Fair are almost too big now 🙂