We went, she cried, we came home again.
I’ve backed myself into a corner with this now. She’s knows i’ll take her home, i know she actually quite enjoys it, she knows she doesn’t have to go, i know she doesn’t have to go.
I don’t know if i’m being given the run around, she doesn’t know what she really wants “I like it but i don’t want to go”, i don’t have the flexibility to stay and settle her endlessly.
Have i given it a fair try? Is she doing this because she senses my ambivience? Is she genuinely not ready/not interested? Is she afraid of something new but secretly wanting me to help her get used to it?
I don’t know. Bits of me just think “bugger it” and bits of me think “give her a few minutes and then walk away as long as she isn’t crying.” I don’t have that many options really and i don’t actually know what i want anymore, never mind know what she wants, that bit is just unutterably beyond me.