Indeed we did. Max seemed to recover to some extent overnight, well enough not to let me down anyway. Not quite sure what was up with him but it was deeply unnerving to have him appearing to be in early labour :~( Hoping its nothing serious anyway, i’ve had unpleasant “Impending doom” feelings lately.
Amelie excelled herself with a 6am tantrum this morning which was somewhat tedious; i’ve got a feeling a lot of it is hunger related and given i give her as much food as i can, i’m notr sure what to do about it. Its a reasonable relief to have been here twice before and just be able to deep breathe through most of it and know that in a year she’ll be 4 and i’ll adore her again.
So most of today was just relative stuff- my entire close family were there so with Rich’s girlfriend (lovely, doesn’t appear to be a bunny boiler…) there were 14 of us. It was a nice feeling. Little Ro is much more “little child” like than Josie – holds toys, chunters away, rolls over etc – i obviously have “last baby syndrome!” (plus i’m bloody well not putting her down to learn all that mobility lark!) She spends far too much time with a boob in her mouth to learn anything anyway!
All in all it was lovely to see everyone.
I’m sat pondering parenting atm. I’ve had a conundrum which i failed to suitably fix this week… Ammi broke Erica, Erica was the ONLY thing Maddy asked for for Xmas and was utterly heartbroken and unable to play with the broken one. Ammi did it on purpose, had it been Fran’s i might just have told her to get on with it but my heart melted at Maddy’s distress and the fairly pathetic fact that she actually didn’t even ask me to replace it, just looked terribly sad. So i bought another one. Ammi got the broken one, which was a bad thing but i hoped it would divert her. New doll arrived, Maddy was overwhelmed and cried, treasured her, slept with her… naturally Ammi has kicked up hell for the new one… i’ve just discovered that Ammi took the new Erica out of Maddy’s sleeping arms and has ripped it. Little B**** :~( I’m really angry.
I’m angry on all sorts of levels – the first deviousness of breaking Maddy’s to get it, my failure to deal with that, my indulgence in replacing it to make it up to Maddy, Ammi’s bloodyminded wanting, Ammi’s second devious wrecking.
I’m not sure the level to which my children are spoiled – i deeply disliked some behaviour i had from them earlier this week but they were tired, i think i’m strict at times, only Fran repeatedly “asks” for stuff. I’m starting to think pocket money now, for her at least. Generally i think they are quite lovely, i do know i over-indulge… who doesn’t? Mostly people say my girls are nice… people i would trust to be honest… the weeping over things annoys me at times but… oh… ho hum. Given how hard Maddy takes imperfection, given it was her prize possession, given it was wilfully attacked by her sister out of spite, was it bad to replace the doll? I don’t know.. waaaaah…..
Off to orgo plan tomorrow….
