Its okay, she’s still here. Only just, but still here. Dunno what was up with her last night but she narrowly avoided being battered, i’m not sure i’ve ever got so angry with her. Normally her sleeplessness is itch related; well you just can’t get angry at that but last night it was a “where is daddy, i hate yoooooou” type of thing. For 5 hours. I finally lost it and whipped back my arm to give her a smack (pushed to the limit by being screamed at, bitten, punched and kicked through to dawn) and smashed my hand backwards into the headboard of the bed. And thought better of it through the pain. Bruised knuckles, parenting credentials more-or-less intact. :~/ I dunno, Nic, you have my full understanding on this one.
So she fell asleep at 6.15, Josie woke at 6.20 – we all dozed till 9.30, my sleep only interupted by having a passionate affair with Wayne Rooney and getting pregnant by him. (He was a VERY caring person in “real life” :~/) Honestly i worry about myself. We didn’t even have our own house; we were living in centerparcs and sharing a bathroom with someone. Cheap skate.
Ammi and i have passed a pleasant day; lego, my friend Jennie and her daughter K (who looks a little like Lulah and thereby confuses Ammi somewhat), videos, Auntie Mabel, more lego, singing made up songs, gooze, cuddles and silly games. Yes, we had quality time i think. I even managed to clean out the kitchen so its spotless, degreased, washed up, reorganised and all the etcs – Khadijah, flylady would be proud ;~)
Max and the girls are back after a lovely night away with Grandpa; they’ve bought Buckaroo, so that’ll be more pieces lost by morning. Still not found the Downfall piece. Grumble grumble.
Just want to say a big thank you for all the emails, kind offers and thoughtful gestures i’ve had over the last few days. I needed it. There was something faintly reassuring about Jennie visiting today and saying within about 2 minutes (she’s known me a long time) “Oh, you’ve got depressed again, that’s a bit earlier than normal. Have you been to the doctors yet?” How lovely to have friends who care, know and don’t mind saying.
