Yuck, i felt horrid this morning, disgustingly stiff and sore and achy. Been taking painkillers all day, but it seems to have eased off now. Phew.
Felt so awful in fact that i lazed all morning, the kids played gamecube and various make up games and i lounged miserably. Must be stricter about the gamecube though, not entirely sure i’m pleased with its influence here. The kids seem to have been deeply cranky since its arrival. Not least Ammi, who gets very bored watching it.
Finally summoned up the effort to get out of the door to Playstop where we met Muhamad and his mum – who is lovely and we had such a nice chat. I really like her. Enjoyed questioning her in my (doubtless deeply boring) quest for more knowledge about Islam :~D Kids all seemed to have a nice time although Fran is outgrowing it there now and got a bit bored, especially as M and M only had eyes for each other!
Got back and Fran finished off a range of hama frogs for me to put on BM; she is eyeing up the new Pirate kit too – we shall see ;~) Normally i am very anti the “oh well its half term” remark, but this week i’m using it – i’m whacked!
I had parcels to do and by evening was feeling a bit overwhelmed by life in general. Josie is, as people may have noticed last week, a fairly boob orientated baby. Now i don’t pretend to be superwoman but a baby, 3 HE’d kids, various activites, a home and a small business or two to run, is a reasonable handfull and i’m coming to the conclusion i can’t cope. I just felt overwhelmed tonight by the sheer scale of dirty washing, unfulfilled kids, mess, business stuff i can’t expand on etc etc – and i really can’t afford a cleaner but i can’t make more money unless i have more time.
So after wailing about it to Max for an hour, i’ve organised a temporary teenager to come and give me a hand. I’m hoping it’ll help me focus my mind on earning more.
Nic, i think you are right, reading equals autonomy – been trying to articulate that for a year.
Normal service will be resumed shortly.
