Not bad, not bad.

Feeling a bit more positive today. Today is the day i had in my head that i had to deliver by (the day Maddy came) or i would end up having a section. And clearly i am not going to. And oddly enough i’m so convinced by that omen that i now feel less freaked out by the “how will it happen?” conundrum. I’m clearly insane *:~D at self!* Plus i didn’t have a huge round of fake contractions last night so i don’t feel so exhausted and sore and even if Ammi, i mean Amelie, was up 5 times in the night i just feel slightly more reasonable. Off for another reflexology in a bit so who knows if that will hit the odd button.

Anyway, we have had Zoe here today and all has been very smooth really. Fran went skating, then we all did Snowbabies. Then we came home, flopped, had lunch, i baked more pies.

Zoe and the kidlets painted all the recent salt dough creations and some pictures and then played some enormous game. its all been very pleasant.

Plus i am feeling good because i have been giving my sister the best breastfeeding support i can manage via late night texts and last night she got her wee small going with the aid of a nipple shield and suddenly its all working a bit more for them. So i am not a complete failure after all; i have KNOWLEDGE!!!!!