ARGH…

You know when you really, really need a good nights sleep? Well that of course would be the night that smallest daughters eczema flares up and she has to spend the night in your bed kicking you and shrieking if you dare to move.

And then this morning she saw Moo sneak in for a cuddle and hurled herself at my head, alien-like kicking and thumping both me and Moo (in the head). At which point i completely lost it and pretty much hurled her across the bed :~( Well okay, thats a bit extreme – put her away from me very firmly and yelled very very loudly at her. Which did stop the tantrum but shocked us both so much that we are now both completely miserable. I don’t function on no sleep when pregnant, nor do i function well on having my body kicked black and blue, nor do i much like Moo being hurt like that because it takes her hours to cheer up.

I think i’ve got ante-natal depression :~( I think i am really really missing my friends and my cousin, so many of whom have moved or become part of the schooly thing so i hardly get to see them now. All in all i am NOT cheerful. And now Moo has completely refused to go to nursery, which in a way is just fine, because it saves me going out later.